Everything's gonna be alright.

Here is another one.. Written Oct 12, 2008

I dont care about my past anymore.
Its behind me.

Every year, a new year.
Every day, a new day.
It's all starting to fall behind me.

And im not planning on my future.
I know God has a plan for me,
And along the way i have messed up too many times to count,
But i know that one day, he's going to wash that all away.
He's already starting to.

He has bigger and better plans for me, than what i have for myself.
So, no longer am i searching, or chasing, or planning.
That too is falling behind me.

There is alot of things that are falling behind me,
And if good is going to come from it,
And if it isnt what God has written beside my name,
Then i am willing to let it all fall,
And i will be willing to not look behind me to see what those things were.

I am struggling right now with alot of things in life,
And i have tried with all that i have inside of me, to fix these things,
Change things, Change myself, Change situations.
I ignored the fact- But am now starting to acknowledge, It is all out of my control.

I have been drained. Drained, untill i have been emptied.
I've been here so many times before in my life.
And obviously, whatever i have been doing isnt working for me.
Obviously, whatever ive been doing, isnt what is supposed to be done.
So, i give up. I dont know what else to do anymore,
Except to take it out of my hands, and put it in God's.