Preachers Kid.

Alright, FYI and a huge heads up. This blog might make no sense to anyone but Me.. But hey that's all that matters! And since i took my time to write it all out, Im gonna post it anyway.. haha (: Enjoy........... Love's Always..... The Pastor's Daughter <3
 
Today i realized something..

Something i never thought of or realized before.
It was a huge revelation for me.
(no offense to anyone...)

So here is my thought's for the day.. And this all came to me, in Church this morning.. Sitting on a chair in the back of the Church before the service ever started, and thinking to myself...

"Ugh.. Why did i even come to Church today?"

I almost didnt even get out of bed today.

But i know this is a Holiday and alot of people are out of town and i knew alot of people werent going to be at Church. So.. I felt bad for my Dad and wanted to be there because i knew he would be.. He wake's up early, and studie's and gets hisself ready. So if he can do that for about 10 people then i can get my lazy self out of bed and be there.

I did NOT want to wake up this morning
I did NOT feel like being around people,
or talking to people or even hearing the word of God =X

Which sounds horrible i know But right now im just not feeling my usual self, and i feel a little weight on my chest, and alright i'll quit yapping my jaw and get to the point ;) (glad i went btw....)



So..

Being a Preacher's Kid..

You've heard enough sermons, watched enough religions programs, met and heard enough Preacher's preach, and you've most likely been to many churches and have heard many many Praise/Worship music...

So you know what's good, what's great, and what's even better. You know where you've felt the spirit of God, and where you havent. You know where the Spirit is stronger, and the places where it's not as strong. And that's no offense to anyone. Im sure you know what im talking about.

And let me say, I've been... I've seen... I've heard.. I've felt...
And there is NOTHING like my own Church where my Father is the Preacher.
And I PROMISE YOU it is NOT because he is my Father.
I've alway's said..

"My Dad may not be the best Father, But he is an amazing Pastor."

And it's because the Holy Spirit lives in him, leads him, uses him, and he does a good job with the gift that God has placed inside of him. As do many other Pastor's.

Anyway's.. That's all besides the point :p

I dont think anyone will ever know how hard it is to be a Preacher's Kid.
If you see me using the letter's *PK* throughout this blog it stands for Preacher's Kid.
(just incase you didnt know already...)

One of the bad thing's about being a PK is the fact that all eye's are always on you.
Everyone is always watching the PK.

Did you see what she did? She's the Pastors Daughter.
.. See her over there? That's the Pastor's Daughter.
OMG. That is the Preacher's Son! Can you believe what he just said!?

Growing up as a PK or even a Pastor's wife is not alway's fun.


We are not placed any higher or any lower than any other children/people.
But we are watched just a little bit closer than anyone else.
And judged more than anyone else as well.
And EXPECTED to be better than what we are.



One person can do something, and it's bad...
But the PK can do the same thing, and it's 10x worse.
Possibly because we should have known better? Raised better?
Sure..
....BUT we're only human.



We're taught the same as everyone else. Maybe even more than other's.
And we have morals and respect. Especially for our Parent's, and the roles they play.
But we're only human.


We arent super men, and/or super women.
Neither is our Father/Mother (whoever the Preacher is in your family)


But today's revelation is not about what we do, or what we've done, or how we are judged.
It's above and beyond that.

The roles are reversed in my revelation.


I am not the church people on the outside looking in at the Children.
I am the Child on the outside looking in at my Father.

If you think it's hard to be a Preacher's Kid,

Imagine being the Kid whose Father is their own Pastor.
(*cough* which is pretty much what i just said, just slightly different lol)



"The hardest part about being a Preacher's Kid, Is havng to go to Church"

(that was my exact thought in church today................)

I dont think anyone will ever know/understand what it feels like to be the Preacher's Kid.

To be the person who lives with the Pastor.
To see their ups and downs.
The good the bad the ugly.
To see them raw, upclose, personal, unedited,
Happy, Sad, Mad, Moody, Angry.



And then to walk into a Church Service on a Sunday, And have to listen to them Preach.......

(ohhh my.................. especially if your mad at your father/mother lol) -Haha, Wow.


And Yet you still look at them in awe,
In awe of the place they stand,
And in awe of their message, In awe of their gift.

Not only is being a PK a blessing. But it's a challenge.


It takes a certain type of person to do the things we do,
deal with the things we have had to deal with.

So keep that in mind... Sometime...
If it ever crosses your mind...
And pray for us.



Pray for your Pastor.

Pray for MY pastor.

Pray for the Pastor's wife, and children, and grandchildren.

Pray for us, because we all might need it more than you ever know.


It might look like an easy job and you might think you know; but you have no idea how hard it sometimes is to walk in Church on a Sunday morning, and listen to your Father Preach.
<3





And i am in NO way saying my Father is a bad person or that he does bad things. So please keep that in mind. Im just referring to the fact that we are all human, and just because we're slightly special or different doesnt mean we are perfect or wonderful, or flawless. We are human just like everyone else, and i myself need to realize that alot more than i already am starting to.