IT GETS BETTER.

I know i cant help people.. Well not that i now of.. I know im not perfect and im not smart and im not much of anything.. But i do know that it DOES GET BETTER.

I was bullied alot..... Never physically but verbally, and mentally.

People made up lies on me, gossiped about me, Talked horrible about me.. Made up things about me... People would prank call me harassing me.

And of course they said every awful thing they could about the "Preacher's Daughter".

I've been told i should kill myself,
i've been told how ugly i am, how fat i am, and worthless...
(and things much much worse)

I've been told many things growing up, and i went through alot personally.

Words hurt more than people know.

And there were so many times,
i would have gladly given up on life..


But thank God i now know better. And im better because of this.

People still do alot of harassing online with me to this day.
But i dont let it affect me. It means nothing to me.

Im better than that and i know it. And you are too.


BUT...Im going to tell the truth... It's a bad habbit i've picked up on lately. Speaking my mind, and telling the truth.

You never truly get over some things in life.. And life is not perfect, it will never be. Neither will YOU or ME. And maybe you wont ever be 100% happy. But that's okay. Because it's gonna be alright.....

The truth i wanted to tell you is.. There is still nights.. Where i find myself.. Longing to give up.. Considering ending it for myself, to end the pain, to end the thoughts, to end it all... But i hold on............ To the hope i have inside of me............ The hope for a better day.... I know there is something amazing out there for me. And something amazing is going to happen..... So i cant give up. Even though i want to, and i think about it. I wont. And i dont want you to either. And im not asking you to make a promise, but im asking you to consider it.

And dont forget there is hotlines out there.. People you can call and talk to. If you believe in the God i believe in, never hesitate to call out to him. He's there all day every day, He's omni present, Where ever you are, He is, And he's listening.

Even if you dont believe in him the way i do, It wouldnt hurt to try it..... To cry out to Jesus, and ask him for help.. I know that's asking alot for non-believers...


Man.. I wish i could change the world.. I know we all do.. I wish i could help other's, help you, help myself.. I wish i could change lives. Even one.. I should probably start with myself.. Im trying so hard just to get through this life like i know we all are.......... I wish i knew all the right words, I wish i had the answer.......

OH! Also i want to remind you all! If your struggling with something and you need to vent.. There is so many things you can do!

Start a diary! I have diary/journals from when i was 16 untill now. I've written so many things down, so many thoughts and feelings, it helps so much to get things off your chest. And BLOGGING (like im doing now) is another thing to do.

Start a journal/diary, Start a Blog, Or even a VLog. Record videos, If not for the whole world for yourself. Or your family.. Get a new hobby.. Entertain yourself.. Learn something new. Learn how to paint. Learn how to cook. Stop sitting around just THINKING about everything and dwelling on everything, and do something different.................................. Paint a picture.. And if it sucks, Hang it on your bathroom wall...... Then you can concentrate on it's flaws ;)


Oh Gosh.. I'll shut up now.. I talk too much.. I know...

Check out this song, it's called HOLD ON.
HOLD ON