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Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Life, Death, Love, Emotional =/

Im curious.....
And if you know the answer to this, let me know...
When you get older, Do you get more emotional?

I cried, On Fathers Day.........................
Not because i was happy, But because i was sad.
And i wasnt crying over my Dad, Cause he is still alive..

We went to the cemetery to put flowers on my Uncles grave.
And let me tell you, I loved this Uncle of mine.
He was my Papa's Brother.

But i havent thought about him in years, And i havent cried over him in years either.
I probably cried after he passed away,
But after that i went through too many things after that time that i hardly ever thought of him again.

Untill Sunday............

As we got out to the cemetery the first thing i started thinking about was being thankful that i had my Father at home... I mean, Come on.. It was Father's Day, and we were going to put flowers on someone elses Father's grave......

That was the first thing that made me cry,
And then... I felt worse after seeing all of the people at the cemetery............

Not far from Uncle Odies grave was a family Standing around a grave, Just standing there, Several of them........... And not long after (as we were pulling away) That family held hands and prayed around the grave. It killed me seeing that. That's something i have never seen before......


Anyways.... As we got out to his grave, I seen his name on the stone, and looked at his picture, And just starting crying (of course i had my stunner shades on so nobody could tell =p but i was crying)

....... Because for the first time, In a long time, I actually thought about him and missed him.

Not too many people know this, But Uncle Odie was a good friend of mine.
He was older, But he understood me.
He understood me and what i felt when i was around 14/15.
He understood the kind of love i had inside of me.

We used to talk before every church service. And he always talked to me like we were the same age.
He was never older, nor was i younger, We were friends.

I went through alot during the ages of 14/15 And he was there for me.
He'd always talk to me and give me the best advice.

And his advice to me, Was to never let anyone keep me away from the one i love....

At the time, There was this guy i was with (the one im still with today) And alot had went on during that time, and my parents were trying to keep me away from him, Everyone was really....

But Uncle Odie said, If you love him, Dont let him go.. Dont let anyone tell you that you cant talk to him. If he is the one you love, BE WITH HIM. And let me tell you, He isnt the only one who told me that, Uncle June (Uncle Odie's Brother-Inlaw) Told me the same exact thing. Every time i seen them.

And i held on to those words. Because, As everyone else in the world was against me, And against me talking to my boyfriend at the time, Those two men, Encouraged me alot........ I was young at the time, and was going through a rough time....... So their words, Helped me, Comforted me. And the stories they'd tell, Well... If you knew them, Then you'd know why they told me not to let him go. But that's for me to know.

Anyway's, Not long after standing around his grave i noticed something......................
Something i thought was pretty awesome.


And i dont know if it was a coincidence,
A sign,
Or maybe just a little wink from Uncle Odie to me,

His gravestone read his
Date of Birth, And his Death Date.

I was unaware of either of these dates.
Well.... sure i knew about his Death Date at the TIME,
Because i did go to his funeral & all that,
But my memory is horrible, So i didnt remember it.
Untill i seen it Sunday (Father's Day)

Birth Date: December 23
Death Date: June 16


.... I said, Mom!! OMG!!!!
Look at the death date on his stone!

He died 3 days after my Birthday!

And then... I seen.. His birthday...

December 23.......... That's my Boyfriends birthday ;)


He was born on my Boyfriends Birthdate (obviously not the same year)
They had the same Birthday..................
And I never knew it.

I know, It might not sound like much to anyone else,
And might sound a little stupid but.........
Seeing that meant alot to me.................




Well, Im signing off now.
Thanks for reading my blog (if you are reading)

And let me know... What do you think...
Do you think the older you get the more emotional you get?

Or maybe... Do you realize and see more and understand more the older you get,
And thats why things make you more emotional?

4 comments:

  1. yeah i defineitely think its as u get older your wiser and understand more so things get to u more (expecially to the ladies) we have an emotional side like no other. anything could make us cry..even if it isnt sad. Im the exact same way..i cried on thaksgiving and new years...just because. Nothing sad was happening but i guess i was just thinking about every1 and what they were doing in general and with there lives then bam.. started crying out of no where..of course i went upstairs to my room so no 1 would see lol. Somethimes i hate how emotional i can get...and over nothing, Thats why i hate opening up bc i just want to cry..but God has been helping me with the whole opening up thing bc its healthy and truly heals u. Im so proud of u for sticking up for what u love. I know how tough that situation can be but always look at it like this: if u dont have peace in ur heart about something than its probably not right for u, but if u do...then cling on sista! much love and all the best of everything!

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  2. i do think that the older you get the more wiser you get and emoitonal. i don't get too emotion in u\publis, but there are times that are hard holding back my tears. like on father's day, at chur ch. i was i just so thankful that my father is still here with me, and i know it was hard on my dad, since his dad passed away! and on mother;s day , is really sad,cause my grsndma isn;t here no more, she was like a secomd mom to me. so i do think the older you get you get more emotional, bc i you look back at everything you had once and dont have nomore, at all the things or people you took for granted and realize what you got, and what you lost.

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  3. agreed you definitely get more emotional....and specifically for the reason you stated. you get wiser as you get older. loved your post.

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  4. You do get more emotional as you age, But right now I am pretty emotional and i'm only 12. You see Charity, ive lost 2 people I loved, When I was about 11 I lost my grandfather and i was so torn up about that, then just recently in May, in fact the day after mothers day the same day of my best friends birthday May 10 i lost my only girl cousin do to a car accident and that was EXTREMELY hard for me because I dont have a big famuily and I only had two cousins, a Boy and a Girl. Now i feel alone because i dont have that special person i can talk to. :'( so trust me i KNOW how you feel. You probably wont read this but i'm glad I could get this off my chest. Nobody knows i feel this way... Xoxo Melody. <3 R.I.P Grandpa, and Jarret

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Dear Charity,